Just when you think all is well..

Last night my mother called me and told me that my little sister had something to tell me.. Anyway, without getting into this long drawn out story.. I wasn't happy with what I heard. I haven't talked to anyone about it, (not even my husband). The thing is- I do and I don't want to talk about it. I am so hurt by what my baby sister told me last night. I mean, I'm trying to tell myself- it isn't the worst thing in the world. And she said that she's learned her lesson and it won't happen again- but it still hurts. I have talked to my sister SO many times. I have told her that she can talk to me about any and everything. I have all ways left that door open, hoping that she'd use it. Use me and my wisdom- okay, that's a bit much, but I do know at least a little. I can tell her that the mistakes that SHE has to make are not worth it. I have been there. Done that. Nothing but a lot of heartache and pain. For everyone involved.

I worried about our conversation all night and even today in class I was on the verge of tears. I could not concentrate. Again, I am trying to make myself believe that this is not the worst thing in the world, that I can trust and believe that she has learned her lesson and will not attempt this again.

And when I ask her why? She tells me that she made her choice because she was angry. Angry with who I ask? She starts to cry and says that she is angry at our brother and other sister. I understand to an extent, but cut the crap. She made her choice because she wanted to. Then I tell her that she should turn the negatives into positives. Not negatives into more negative. What's the point? Anyway, all I can do is continue to hold that door open for her and pray that she comes right in. I will continue praying that God leads her into the RIGHT direction.

~T